Empathy for the Psychopath/Nubbin (psychological)/James Murphy/Grounded by Stabbing Stabbing Pain.

It's been a little while.
Training wise, since the day after my last post things are going grand. Long roady climby ones, long technical singletracky ones, spinny other type ones, early morning ones. Awesome.

Work was exhausting the week before last. I found my Friday afternoon embroiled with admitting a psychopath. a proper, test them twice because no one that young can score that high, psychopath. It left me worn down to a psychological nubbin. Knowing that this person had NO FEELINGS and having to be empathic et al is draining, you feel kinda used, they know what is going on and so do you. man. But, I feel empathy for this person, as I believe these wretches are created via awful trauma, I'm a nubbin nonetheless.

The day after that I found myself out for I think my strongest off road ride ever, an early morning 40 up at woodhill. beautiful.

That afternoon, I backed a trailer full of leaf mulch down our drive (you ain't seen our drive) and all felt well with the world. Then the stabbing abdominal pain started. oy vey. did it start. It started Saturday night, and I thought I'd torn something riding, however by Sunday evening I thought I may die, Monday morning came and I called in sick for work. Then I had some porridge. Then it went away. Then I did a sweet 60km. Then it came back. Went to the GP on Tuesday morning, after not sleeping.. Turns out I have Gastritis, which is an inflammation of the stomach lining. After discussing peptic ulcers, ultrasounds and gastroscopy (sticking a camera down your gullet) my GP informed me that if the blood test did show an ulcer then I wouldn't be able to race in a week. I nearly cried.

Since then I've discovered that injections in my ass suck. and I've got some sort of fruity virus,and the stabbing is getting better. Which is awesome news as it means game on!!!!

My bike is in getting a service, with a brilliant young man whose better half is also a professional hippy. Organic broccoli, sir?

I love LCD soundsystem. Always have. When James Murphy sang "Like a fat guy in a T Shirt doing all the singing" I felt like he was speaking right to me....

Will update soon. gush.